Are you wrong to feel this way?
Exactly why would anyone come on this site and ask such a question?
Guess we can all assume it is rhetorical.
In any case, if you dislike attending the KH so much ... quit! If you don't get anything out of the meetings, I'm sure you aren't contributing much either.
You are free to feel anyway you want. Isn't it wonderful that Jehovah gave us all free choice?
Obviously your intellectual betters here haven't jumped in to pat you on the back yet ;)